Hey,
My name is Jess. I'll be 17 years old. This is going to be dieting journal. It is FRIENDS ONLY! If you would like to be added, then you can comment on my friends only banner and ask. Promote ONLY here. IF you would like to read my personal journal that includes things other then my dieting, you can reach me at: forever_his9405 but for now, this is my weightloss journal.

~Jess

  <<<<this is me now     <<<<this is me hopefully by July!

Okay, I have to say that I have the SWEETEST boyfriend ever!! Today I got my valentines gift that he has worked his butt off for the past 2-3 weeks:):) and it was definitely worth the wait!!! So it started out with him coming over at 8 o'clock and he brought over Parker and his mom which freaked me out because I was totally NOT expecting them to come lol.. and then my dad put a curtain up in the kitchen so I could see what Aaron was doing. So FINALLY the show started. He made a puppet show dedicated to me:) Lol, it was so sweet!! Sweet and it had a sense of humor to it!! He is the sweetest guy EVER!! And during this. He had a story teller, and he made it all on a tape with different voices and the story teller was my teddy bear Domino that he bought me!! IT was SO CUTE!! Then the puppet show wasn't the end!! After that he read a poem about me TO EVERYONE!!!(while it was directed towards me lol) It was the sweetest thing ever and then he sang a song to me too:). It was so cute:)

After the show was over, he sang another song off the top of his head about camels lol, that was memorable:):).. definitely a valentines I will NEVER forget AND we got it ALL on camcorder!! So I can watch it whenever I want to!!

I wanted to share with everybody the poem that he wrote me, that is SO cute:)



The sun is brighter than the day before,
New feelings emerge and turn into something more,
Something grows down from within
A new being called love can now begin
With lots of time and much to care
Jessie and Aaron's love have room to spare,
With plenty of fun and poems to write,
Tons of experience that's more than just right,
And the fight may start because of you,
But that doesn't stop a girl like you,
With the feelings we have that stay to guide,
That allows our hearts to touch the sky,
That lets us believe what we want to hear,
That keeps us happy and away goes our fear.



I just though that it was the cutest thing:) It's the sweetest thing anybody has EVER done for me=). You don't realize how lucky you are, until the guy you love does something that just blows your mind!!
I AM SO HAPPY!!!:):) He's the greatest guy ever:):) and last night i got some really CUTE pix of us:):) cuddle and kissing pictures:)

A Wedding time Poem

A humble cottage 'neath the hill,
Where children laugh and romp at will –
With parents' tender love and care,
How could their lives be else than fair?
Oh, let them all be glad to-day,
For swift the years will pass away,
And when they're women grown, and men,
'Twill never be the same again.
The wedding bells may sweetly ring,
And glory be on everything;
But when one leaves the dear home nest,
'Tis lonelier for all the rest.
And if they one by one shall leave,
How can the parents help but grieve?
All come and go, and love – but then,
'Tis never quite the same again.
Ah, well! Perhaps 'tis better so,
That deeper meanings we may know.
There is no loss, no grief, no pain,
That may not bring its own sweet gain;
And in that blessed land above,
There'll be again one home, one love,
Then one in heart, and one in name,
At last 'twill ever be the same.

-Mrs. Frank A. Breck

Okay people, here goes. I just got done talking to my sister and brother-in law a lil bit ago, and they helped me realize something. That i need to get looking for guys. For one thing, I shouldn't look on the outside i need to look on the outside at them. There may be a good looking guy out there that has a beauty on the inside, but i dunno. what i want, is a guy who wants more that just a relationship, he wants a friendship and he wants to get married not just have a 2 month thing and then cheat on me and break my heart. Because if you look at it like I do and me and my sister and brother do then it says that everytime u have a boyfriend you give away a part of your heart, and that part belongs to that guy. So once you get married if you've been w/ that many guys then u have given a part of your heart to a lot of guys and u hardly have anything to give to that guy that you want to make finally your husband. I mean. i know i am only 15, and most 15 year olds don't talk about stuff like this, but this stuff is like so important to me, you've no idea. It means the world to me. this is something that I really need people to understand. Its hard enough at school seeing couples together and wishing i was there, when i really don't want to, i want my first kiss to be with the man i marry. as crazy as that may sound to some people. I want marriage, but I need to grow up first i know. i know i am going to have crushes, that is just something i can't help. but whoever i marry, that is god's plan for me. I just have to be patient and let god's plan work out. because i know he has one for me, because God has a plan for everybody, because he loves all of his children, no matter if they sin or not, because he still loves them, just like your parents love you even if you get on their nerves somtimes. But i need my friends and everybody out there to understand what my needs are right now, and that i need all of thier support in this rough time, because anybody who has been in high-school understands how hard it is not to go along with temptation. I look at this at the devil tempting me to diverg God's plan for me, and i can't let that happen. otherwise it would screw up my plan entirley too much.

Okay along with all of that, Cass went to the doctors today to find out that she also has broncitis, my mom says she has it too, the only reason she isn't goin to the doctors is because she doesnt want any anit-bodics. My brother has just had it a few weeks ago, I just hope thatI won't get it, but by the looks at it, its quiet possible that I will get it. I started "When God Writes Your Love Story" by Eric and Leslie Ludy and it's a really good book, and its only page like 19 or something! It's like their going through what I am or something like that, so its really good. Cass also brought over "I kissed Dating Good-bye", but she said she liked this one better so i decided that i would read it first.

My arm is shaking, I just got done doing an exercise and my arms ache lol, the stable ball is really hard, you have balance and use weights, painful lol, but hey if it works, then I'll go through all the pain I haveta! I just want to for once see some results, or rather I want other people to see a difference of me when they see me, I want to have the "wow you look so different" effect on people in fall when I go to school and visit relatives that is why I am really gettin on the bandwagon. Trying to eat right to this week, i mean I might get easter candy and maybe a pop, but thats as far as I am going this week. Not any farther because I really am tired of being in the 160's I gotta try to cut down on pizza tonight.

-Jess-

Alrghty so right now nothing much is going on, Amanda has a date to prom!! I'm so happy for her, leist just walked lol, I got Kenny in medic earlier, it was great!! lol adam Leist hurt himself playing medic poor guy:( lol plus his arm hurts from baseball.

-Jess-

Okay, so I am getting to the point where I am getting lonesome, or maybe just sick and tired of seeing everybody kissing and making out in the hallway. It's just that right now I don't like anybody, but yet I want to like somebody, because I want a boyfriend, i don't know I just want to be loved by somebody in that way. But yeah, the guy that I want would lik ebe at my school and he would be able to always be there for me, and when the it gets tough he wouldn't just leave me in the dust and he would talk to me about stuff, and the the kinda realtionship that I want would be to where, he's not afraid to be with me, and not afraid to like hold my hand and doesn't have to be forced to hold my hand, no matter how hard his heart is beating when he is around me.

Well, its English class right now. just finished a paper that was due today that I didn't know about. For breakfast I had a slim fast bar, the same thing I am having for lunch. Big surprise there lol. Hopefully gym is a free day today. next hour is History, who knows what were doing in there lol. Umm today no wollenberg! yay!!! score!! lol now if only there was no thomason that would be perfect. today I weight 163.2

gotta go before I get caught:S

-Jess-

Hey,

well I have this journal now, because I didn't want David reading my post anymore.. well you know not when I talk about my weight and stuff, its just not something you want a guy who has a crush on you reading.. yeah he said he still likes me.. kinda wierd. But I don't really feel about him in that way, so we're just going to stay friends, thank goodness lol Wel about my whole weight issue, a couple times this week for lunch, I am going to try and do SlimFast, because my sister brought over some SlimFast bars, and I know that I could have them for lunch, along with maybe some water and teddy grahams, so I will try that probably tomrrow, instead of buying lunch, which I only did about 2 or 3 times last week.. GO ME! lol, and maybe I'll do the GRIND a couple times this week, hopefully we have a free day in gym tomrrow, because I really wanna play Volleyball again. Grr, I hate having friend problems. Amber drinks sometimes and she smokes, I never hang around people who do that, the only reason I hang around her is because I know she is a good kid, she is Cindy's friend for goodness sake, she just listens to Brendon (her ex-boyfriends brother) too much.. I really hope that she will get led along the right path, but right now she has promised me that she won't smoke anymore, so I am happy about that.